21 lbs

jonah is now, as of friday, officially 9 months old. i still can't believe it! he had his dr.'s appointment today and we found out that he's 21 lbs and 29 1/2 inches. the doc said everything looked great and thankfully he didn't have to get any shots this time around. i always feel so bad for him when they stick his little legs. i always kinda wanted a chunker for a baby and i don't think that's gonna be jonah. he's a pretty lean guy. i guess that figures...look at his daddy! plus he's moving around so much now that it seems like any fat just melts away.

in other news, i found out today that brian and heather (my bro and sis-in-law) are having a girl!!! hope they don't care that i just announced it to the world. i'm so exciting! i'm gonna have a niece! this is the first girl on my side of the family so you know she is gonna be s-p-o-i-l-e-d rotten.

nothing else all that exciting to write about. we found out about a church in north carolina that needs a youth pastor and a worship pastor. we're checking into it. i think the worship pastor position would be full-time though...not sure if that would work out. tony also got a call from another church in north carolina looking for a youth pastor. we're checking that out too. it's all a little stressful to think about, but i know that God will provide. i'm just antsy to get out of kansas city. i still just don't feel like it's my home and i'm ready to be in a place that does feel like home. hopefully a place closer to the southeast and friends and family.

i'll leave you with a few adorable pictures of jonah, who is now 3 times the size he was when he was born!

i hate performing

so, last night emily and i played at the roasterie...a nice coffee shop here in kansas city. it was SO much fun! if i can toot my own horn a little...we did great! i felt like we were both so at ease that it was as if we were just singing in my living room. the last couple of weeks i really wanted to back out. we've had so much going on in our lives...from starting to interview at churches, tony working doubles, and jonah being a lot more of a handful...that i just felt a little overwhelmed. plus, i was just so dang nervous! in college, i used to get nervous EVERY single time before a concert or recital. the last year or so, it's gotten a lot better. not that i perform a lot, but leading music on sundays does the same thing to me. it took a good 6 months before i didn't feel like my stomach was going to explode every sunday morning! luckily yesterday i had to work so that took my mind off of the whole thing for a few hours. but, around 3:45 the fun began...yup, the normal nerves kicked in.
when we got up to sing, though, i was totally fine. i felt so relaxed and at home up there. i'm sure a lot of it was the venue. the people were all so welcoming (and mostly friends) and the atmosphere was very laid back. it helped to have emily standing beside me too. when i did a few songs on my own i felt a little nervous but still nothing like how i used to feel all throughout a concert.
so i guess what i'm saying is that i always thought i hated performing. i hate being the center of attention. i hate being up in front of people. i hate having everyone staring at me. i hate talking in front of more than 10 people. i hate feeling like my stomach might just crawl up and die for hours beforehand. but last night i LOVED it! it just felt so natural. i loved sharing music with the crowd. and i even talked and didn't really mind. (yes, it was super cheesy, but talking none-the-less!)
i am so pumped about singing again. we're going to try and get another 'gig' lined up at the roasterie. (gig sounds so silly to say...like i'm a rock star or something). and hopefully we can play at other places around town. i'm only sad that we didn't do this earlier. who knows where we (the jecks) will be in the next few months.
but...while i'm here, i'm gonna sing my little heart out.

and so it begins...

jonah starting crawling on sunday! i can't believe it. he woke up from his nap and i put him on the floor in the living room and off he went! he's already bonked his head, torn down some beads, and gotten really upset because we wouldn't let him play with the tv. amazing how our lives have changed simply because jonah can move.
my friend, josh, said this is what his dad always says about crawling. and because i suck at telling things exactly right, i'll just paraphrase. "crawling is just the beginning. now they'll spend the rest of their lives moving away from you." kinda sad, but seems pretty accurate. i mean, if time keeps going by as fast as it has been the last 8 and 1/2 months, jonah will be leaving for college tomorrow!
so i'm so excited that my little baby is learning and growing and figuring things out, but i'd be okay if he just stayed small forever. i guess he'll always be my little boy...even if he is 6'3" and married with a baby. please don't let that day come too soon!